I lost a friend

I dont know how is this friend losing feeling. I have not lose a friend yet. So this news which brought to me by your whatsapp gave me a fucking shock. For that fucking moment I really wish it was April's Fool. Even though we werent very extremely close and even though we arent even friends from begining, its still quite upset to see you leave. We became friends abruptly after you left Acecom and just recently after I joined Acecom.. Subsequently we just talked on MSN, whatsapp and maybe you'll just comment on my status.. and during this period where I lost my dog you did console me here and there over MSN and it was just pretty recent when you nudged me again maybe late last week. Who knows, that was indeed the last conversation. From now onwards, I'll have a friend lesser to talk cok with and just so you know, to have someone whom we can try clicking with and too, a new friend I should say, its rare come by. Steven, I dont know very much of you but I can say or rather I can feel or maybe I can acknowledged, you're really a nice person. Peace, which I dont even know what the hell is it, still, I hope whereever you are, you will seek peace. From the bottom of my heart, you'll be missed.

We abused our very close relationship and don't stand on ceremony on the choice of words/sentence we usually phrase especially on times where/ when the anger is at the top of the mountain Then we no need a very long time to realise our mistakes and somewhat tried to amend. Maybe we were to ashamed of our own behaviors and wish the opposite would start apologizing first. Somewhere in me, I know we felt the same.

Colors

When was the exact last time where my entries are at least filled with colors? Erm, maybe after sometime, yeah, this one is at least colored.














Happy Birthday to a Friendship since secondary. Even though we do not meet up extremely often, neither do we catch up on our lives so much, still somewhere I know we are just.... erm, I dont know what should be that word. hees, thankyou for inviting me to witness your kitty theme, happy twenty first to you cheryl!:D

I love you

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I may have forgottan to tell you how much I've loved you , truth is I really really do. Its just when its on the verge of a goodbye makes me realise all over again , how much you meant the world to me , how much I love JRHP. Still , there's this calling asking me to just move on... perhaps.. when this relationship gets too long, shit happens , and yes I tried.. really, I thought I'll do cool without you. I mean we tried, I dont know how successful or not we are, but yeah, we both tried. I tried

I dont know how's this feeling , I mean all the expectations , comparisons and whats not , ... its suffocating but sometimes again , when I just try to aside all these expectations and whats not, I feel that is okay.. but why do we always still have those shit expections ,

arent love, arent relationship supposed to be accepting flaws of each other... then what are we really fighting about , hais . I was trying to recall the last time we you i were really happy about each other

nevertheless , i know this life, I love you so, it'd always been you, for 6 freaking years , no matter how and what kinda friends guys I made , I never want/ try dating / hang out another person , I cant imagine myself with another person , I mean , with you was just awesome , the feelings were..... just right.


I dont know if you know but now I'm telling you, I love you so much;